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I loved this movie, enjoyed the comic & absolutely ADORE this picture! :D

as if you couldn't already tell...

I. am. a. blogger. and I don't care what you think. I love blogging. I love to express myself in a new way. I love the inspiration I get from other blogs and I hope to inspire as well. I think blogging is viewed in a negative way. that only people with too much time on their hands or who are lonely and look to the internet for a voice or even a friend is completely false. I used to be that person. I used to spill my guts looking for attention when all I did was make a fool of myself. but I was at that age and I learned and grew from it so I refuse to punish myself. I'm past all that now. I don't get why blogging gets such a bad rep. I told my friends about it the other day and they were like, "you are a blogger?" and they said it in a tone where blogging was "wrong" and that it should be viewed negatively. but it's a hell of a lot better than starting some dumb drama on myspace!



and in case you didn't get it, I'm not that obsessed with blogging. the subtext here was for gay rights because there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay and it is most definitely not a choice. I've seen friends that I have known for YEARS find themselves, like we all do, and they just so happened to find out that they're lesbian, gay, bisexual, what have you.


LOVE KNOW NO BONDS. marriage is about love. the "sanctity" of marriage was ruined long ago due to people getting married for money, power, etc. and doing it at a drive-through in Las Vegas.

dedicated to all my friends.

RANT.

these past couple of weeks have been driving me nuts. I haven't been able to shoot my photo essay cause my friends and I have crazy schedules, which I totally understand, and everyone's got their own stuff that they can't control but that's what bothers me - I can't control it! and NY has decided to follow the mantra "April showers bring May flowers" NOW. I'm burned out and feel like I can't catch a break. so now I have to change my photo essay and it's just so ugh.

cool video. cool song.

EXACTLY.

i hate you but i like your music.

kanye west.

john mayer.

50 cent.

ne-yo.

jamie foxx.

kid rock.

flo rida.

heidi montag.

chris brown.

lindsay lohan.

someday.

it'll happen. I know it. I'm just so damn impatient. I just have to love myself first. cause if I can't love me, how can I expect anyone else to?

i heart urban outfitters.

I got this from their website. I wish I had the money to buy this stuff, and fit in it.

the same old, same old.

I'm so depressed. I'm alone and I can't get past that. I'm 18 and have yet to get a boyfriend. I really want to be happy on my own but I can't stop obsessing on how lonely I am. so I want someone to love me. I want to be treated right. why is that so wrong? I certainly don't get that treatment from my family. so what if I want a boyfriend? I'm trying to be happy with myself but I can't seem to achieve that. this poem I wrote and video that I made sums it up perfectly:

jamesdean.

so last night I bought "Rebel Without a Cause" at my local grocery store for 10 bucks. I was so excited cause it was ridiculously cheap and I loved it when I saw it in my Film Study class senior year. I watched it this morning and I fell in love with James Dean all over again. like many hopeless girls I wish I knew him and got to taste his lips but even more I wish I could follow his advice...

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

in honor of Mother Earth, I went to see the movie "Earth" tonight with a couple of friends after all of my errands today. I felt a bit sacrilegious because my friends and I didn't carpool. =( anyways the movie was SO GOOD. the shots were so amazing it makes you wonder how they got such footage. there were some parts where I just wanted to cry but couldn't. :[ I felt like I lost my sensitivity...

spring break...

there's no break for me. I have so many photo projects to finish it's ridiculous. so I have my location fashion project which I'm just going to use an old print for, my outdoor flash project which I have done and my final project which is a photo essay on whatever we choose and I only have one print for that, I need 8-10. *faints* I'm so stressed it's crazy. today I'm gunna photograph Tiffany, tomorrow I'm going to Buffalo and then Friday I'm gunna see Alanna. our final essay has to be documentary so I choose to shoot my friends and their journeys in college. for example, Tiffany is a first generation college student so I thought that was so great I just HAD to share it. I;m not sure how I'm gunna do it but I'm sure gunna try. well I've got a lot of work ahead of me so I'm gunna go.

:)

so I decided to make my own blog since I have like 20 that I check on daily. I'm not sure who will read this but if you do, thank you. this blog will basically be the remnants of my life, no cool theme, just me.