today.

today was a roller coaster. I got my job a Target and my grades for this semester which were high. :] but of course my dad had to criticize and *sigh* whatever. [insert curse word here] anyways, I got to have dinner with my friends which was great because I haven't seen them in forever. Anna and Lisa had to leave after so Tiff and I spent the night together. we went over to Jitters for some sweet treats and talk. we both had have tough weeks (especially her) so it got emotional. then we decided to head over to Family Video to buy and rent some videos which was cool. after that, we decided to go out and swing in the rain on the nearby playground! it was awesome. =) I can't remember the last time I enjoyed the rain. I've spent so much time hating it. i liked getting the wet air in my lungs too. my muscles feel great like I worked out!

holy moley!

i'm following 18 blogs on blogspot alone! there's gotta be 10 other blogs i'm reading on tumblr & such! i love blogging :) hopefully i'll get more followers and inspire other bloggers like they inspire me! :)

i am ...

i hate clowns.

i'm not terrified of them like some of my friends but still, they are very creepy. but what bothers me most is that they have absolutely NOTHING to contribute to society. they're not funny. oh you slipped on a banana peel and squirted yourself with water! well you're just plain dumb in my book! the only "good clown" was the joker. and that's only because heath ledger is a god. ugh. sorry. had to put it out there.

i'm seriously thinking about getting a tattoo.

i'm doing my research. i have a special "tattoos" folder on my iphoto and i'm gunna start drawing some ideas. my inspiration includes birds, bird cages, breaking free & music notes. it's pretty exciting :)

i agree!

BTW.

I absolutely love this picture. I wish I could be this cool & artistic.

ramblings.

recently my counselor has recommended that I journal to discover new things about myself. however, I decided not too because I felt like I was repeating myself after a while. so instead, I decided to start writing my autobiography. who knows if I'll get published - it's my little secret anyways. but I feel that I'm discovering new things in my own way by looking backwards, not forward. I know it sounds crazy but whatever works right?! but then I thought, I am trying to sound much more eloquent and distinguished on paper than how I sound in real life. I'm not saying I'm an idiot, but I'm not a rouge scholar either. *sigh* I'm just conflicted... whatever. just felt like writing something for once instead of posting pictures I love (not that I have anything against it, I just felt like making my blog more personal).

yes it's another whiny blog.

yesterday, I was hopeful and sad at the same time. I had a wonderful dream the night before that I was in a wonderful and loving relationship. it wasn't an x-rated dream. it was actually pretty adorable and I enjoyed it. but then I was sad that I couldn't experience it again. I really try to stay optimistic about someday finding a relationship because I fully believe that you have to be happy with yourself and BY yourself before you can be happy with someone else. I'm just SO TIRED OF WAITING. I'm a lovable, loyal and deserving person so why must I wait?! it just gets so frustrating being alone sometimes...

i. love. her.

she better win.

my quirks.

i hate soft apples.
i always chew the inside of my cheeks.
applesauce makes me nauseous.
i love old buildings.
i have to spend at least 5 minutes of getting comfortable before i can sleep.
i sleep with a fan and music or tv on.
ANY bug scares me.
i loathe lifetime but still watch it from time to time.
my favorite football team is the panthers because i like their uniforms.
i like to make up my own words.
i am so clumsy i will take you down with me.
i burp like a boy.
i'm a trekie.

words to live by.

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it speaks for itself.

how is this attractive or comfortable?!

and how do you keep your pants up?!

so I'm trying to figure out what kind of photographer I want to be...

a couple years ago I wanted to do fashion photography but now, I just don't know. I feel like to understand fashion photography, you have to understand fashion. and I don't understand fashion.

art is informative.

this is a list of every critically endangered species of animal in the world right now.